So back to the tosser, its beginning to get tough. My body is now pretty useless besides my neck but thats going too, my speech is hard to understand, i cant eat madras any more, in electric chair all time, more going down my peg by the week, hate the way i look and sound, other than that im fan fucking dabbi dozey and happiest ive been in a long time.
 
Well what bit is left. Having a big party to celebrate a new start and good riddence to the she devil.
My condition continues worson and is very annoying, hearing all the lies from her and threats to wreck families lives including my daughters over me asking for my things back, what a sad horrid woman.
Anyway my will be more regular and you can now follow me on twitter, search chrisversusmnd
 
So much has changed in the last few months im currently living in a temp flat awaiting my new bungalow which should be ready in 2 weeks with 24 hour care. Iv had amaizing times recently, i have been getting out and about loads including a weekend in brighton at my cousin dannys and his wife jenny with a stop off at claridges (gordon ramseys) which was unbelievable, not laughed so hard in a long time!
Had my peg tube fitted 2 week ago which wasnt a plesent experience :( its taking a bit of getting used too. Progression has not slowed any and i am now able to do very little for myself, my mood has been very up and down of late with things getting so much harder on top of dealing with a divorce which is being made more difficult by an unco-operative certain someone not responding to anything! My mum and dad are being amazing as ever and i dont know what id do without them, all the support from everyone around me including profesionals has been fantastic! My lovely hard working PA has done so much for me and never left my side while i was in hospital, she is a star x.
My name has been put forward for a chnl 4 doccumentry on living with a life thretening illness which should be very interesting iff i am selected.

Thank you to everyone still following my very interesting (haha) blog, my internet and pc will be set up once im in the bungalow and blogs should become more frequent
 
Well just about here lol, hands are no good, legs very weak, voice going, neck going and eating becoming difficult, getting peg tube soon! Its been very hard the last few month with all the changes and trying to get a divorce, still cant get my things out of the house off he, its become quite a mess and just want her out of my life! Sending the police round here over fb was sad and very low considering what we are going through and what she has done to me!
I have goto thank  my lovely PA, best friend , mum, dad, all the amazing hospice staff, my physio, all trial team (even though they support blue shite) my socisal worker , my OT and all my fantastic family for their support, god knows were I would be if it wasnt for you guys, thank you all so much xx

Got my new car and move into my bungalow in august,

party time!

 
I fly out a week tomorrow with 3 others, cant wait to get away in the sun and get drunk! This will be the first of many.
My new car should arrive next week which will help massivley, getting in a normal car is tough.


I would like to say a big thank you to everybody who has helped me get through the last few month, from family and friends to my great carers and internet pals, all comments and emails of support have been read and appreciated, i can only apologies for not replying to everybody as i do struggle with this bloody grid2 thing and only get online for a couple of hours a week.
Also thanks to all who have made donations, it means so much, every bit helps so please continue to send anything you can and I will write till the end.

Heres to many good times and better blogs from here on!

 
My car is ordered and should be here in less than 3 weeks, booking a short break to Benidorm to go and have a good laugh, care hours have gone up, housing is still not sorted but things are looking good, also getting out more lately and trying to have more fun. 
Contact from my so called wife is basicly none existant! It tells me all I need to know, maybe shes busy walking the dog round carr mill dam with a certain somebody! Being seen with another fella just confirms what i thought all along and makes my decision of were i go from here a lot easier.
 
I need to find a PA, idealy somebody that would be able to come on holidays and pretty flexible, i do have one sorted who is great but still a pain in arse lol. Its not easy to find somebody who wants free holidays and still get paid!
Had demo of wheelchair car yesterday, it looks great and hopefully i will be out and about in style soon.  
 
Currently waiting to go into independent living, my mum and dad want me to stay here but i need some independence and somewhere to put the 50 inch plasma i got for the extension lol. At least i will have a walk in shower instead of these bloody bed baths!
 
I suppose none of know how we would deal with this situation but how this has gone is awful, its like i dont exist any more, all in the space of a few month. I feel like a right dick after plastering forums with my wedding pics and how proud i was! What a fucking farse and waste of precious time. All i will say is if it wasnt for my parents, family, friends, inlaws and even her sister god knows what state i would have been in if i stayed there!

Anyway as my mum keeps saying, onward and upward, im not dying im living with my illness.  
 
If i am being tested to see if I will crack up then somebody is doing a bloody good job! I now live with my parents, polly can not cope! I personally believe ive been replaced with somebody of use and i do have my ideas who! She is not the person i married, heartless. So much could be said but now is not the time. 
Extension was weeks away from completion but has now stopped so i am back to square one, this has almost destroyed me , i don't  know how ive not give up.

I have more to write but i will come back, its all still fresh and hurts.

Fighting My Losing Battle with MND.